Games/School/PastLife and 2 guys in my head

I just am. I believe there is not much good left in the world. Corporations, corrupt politicians, men/women in power. They will destroy world eventually, so I usually think it is for the best and hope it will be me responsible for the dooms day.
Some times I get images of something that I am looking at but demolished, ruined, left unattended for many years. I want to draw those images but my skills are very very bad.
Sometimes it is amazing whats going on in my head. Something that I can not describe, wave of wave of thoughts. Anyway srry for disturbing ya guys.